"Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life - well, valuable, but small - and sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don't really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So good night, dear void."
-You've Got Mail
Sometimes I wonder the same thing.
In fact, these days, I always wonder that exact thing.
What am I doing in this small life of mine?
I assume that my life is valuable, that what I am doing, what I am living and loving has actual value.
I live in faith, faith that one day I will look back, and see that value.
The problem is, then, that I cannot wait. I know that I will know someday but I am getting tired of not knowing now.
Do I need to be braver or is my "valuable, but small" life good enough?
dear void, let me know. soon. love, bod
